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Thursday, December 10, 2009

failure.

failure.
That is what I feel like right now. failure with a lowercase f.

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My term 1 marks were below my expectations and during this week, they have been dropping like an anorexic preteen desperately shedding weight.
I failed a major chemistry and math test. Not asian fail, not white fail. ACTUAL FAIL.
It felt like someone punched me in the stomach.
I freaking want my refund back from Anson.

Last History class, my teacher tripped over my bag. Then my phone rang. I pretended I didn't have a phone and I got called out by my classmates. Thanks. My teacher caught me trying to turn it off and he got angry. Then I received back my 4 assignments that I handed in at the end of the class. Only half of them were marked, the others got a zero.
I asked him and he said 'Oh first you arrive late, then your cell phone goes off. You do your math during a movie and now you want to get higher marks? No way, forget it. And also you tried to kill me with your bag! I remember all this, Amy. This affects your participation marks.'
Grand to know that I'm failing history as well.

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In English, I got back one of my essays. It was out of 10. I got an fucking I!
I asked and she said it lacked structure and relevancy and content.
Freaking fantastic. Now I got an essay to rewrite even though it was fine to begin with.

In biology I got my lab report back. I got a 3. Out of 12. My friend who never does any work and did hers in 3 mins got the same. WTF I shouldn't have bothered to write it at all!
I'm so sick of studying and working hard just to get the same mark if I hadn't tried at all. I hate school, this whole thing is bogus.

At least I've got the weekend to relax.
My friend is coming over all the time, getting my hair dyed tomorrow hopefully, volunteer on sat and sun and I've got the new episode of Glee loading while I'm writing this. I'll be eating Smarties ice cream and trying not to drown myself in the puddles outside my house.

It was freaking cold outside. It was snowing a bit earlier.
Never had I hated a weather more and never had I wished for a giant Michelin man jacket to keep me warm.



My mood for the whole week.


Edit: Glee was so fucking awesome, that made up for everything!
The newest episode just blew my mind! Emma and Ken broke up, Glee kids won sectionals even though the other teams cheated, Wil is coach of Glee again, Sue got suspended from the school and Wil and Emma kissed!
Great show, and they did it all without the sappy lines and cheesy soundtrack.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Christmas Gift Ideas for GUYS

Christmas Gift Ideas For Guys
I'm just guessing, because I'm not actually a boy. But this is what I might like to receive if I was a boyfriend, father or guy friend.



Expensive
Guys have such expensive tastes. Here's some gift ideas if you've got a ton a moolah to kick around or just love to pamper your man (aww).


Designer duds-
There's very few clothing brands for guys when compared to girls. Some brands that many guys would like are: Volcom, Hurley, American Eagle, True Religion, Levis, West49, GUESS, J2, Rock and Republic, Diesel, Ed Hardy (*vomit*), North Face, Adidas, Nike, American Apparel, Billabong, Dickies, QuickSilver, A/X, Bench, Versace, Smet.

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For wallets (since guys don't carry a purse), go designer all the way. LV, Gucci, Burberry, Hermes and maybe GUESS and Calvin Klein for less expensive wallets.
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Electronics-
>.> Is all I have to say. Boys and their many toys. Remember to get insurance or some form of warranty. Everyone gets careless.

iTouch-
Everyone likes the iTouch. It's slim, sleek, sexy and has many apps to distract you all day long. To one-up it, get the iPhone. All the features of the Touch, only now it can call!

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Phone-of-the-moment-
Basically says it all. Careful when picking a phone for them because boys get very nit-picky about the features on it. I believe the phone everyone's raving about at the moment is the Palm Pre (*retch*) and the Blackberry Curve (:DDD)!!

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Flat-screen TV-

To watch all their sports on High-Def and in surround sound. To shoot down Russian soldiers on Call of Duty with 52' clarity. And for you to force them to watch all your favorite rom-com movies with you.

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Inexpensive

Broke? Don't worry, you can still show your love this Christmas time without completely massacring your bank statement.


Headphones


Skullcandy, Gumy, Apple, JVC, Maxell.. All brands that sell decent headphones and earbuds at prices to suit your budget.
They come in all sorts of cool designs to match every type of personality.
Prices range from 10 dollars to upwards of 150 = =

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I don't know about anyone else, but I want these Lady Gaga earbuds in silver. $120.


CD/Tunes-

Get him his favorite Kanye West, Akon or Black Eyed Peas CD. Or since no one buys music anymore, burn a few of his favorite songs onto a blank CD. The tunes should remind you of your guy or are tracks that you've shared and enjoyed together. It's a sweet gesture and doesn't cost anything, except the time and effort you put into making the gift.

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Christmas Gift Ideas for Mothers

Christmas Gift Ideas for Mothers

Yeah, there's already a bazillion articles on this already. But one more webpage on this couldn't hurt.



Mother

Expensive: Certificates to a spa/salon/massage/manicure. Every mother deserves to be pampered and indulge herself! Call local salons to see whether they sell certificates or book an appointment.
Price and service is up to you, depending how much you want to spend.

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Skin care products. This is a bit tricky because you want your mother to stay beautiful but don't want to give off the impression she's getting older or uglier. It depends on the woman, some are more sensitive than others.

Some types of gifts you might be safe giving are: moisturizers, facial cleansers, yummy lip balm, body lotion, hand cream, teeth whiteners, nail kits
Stuff to avoid unless you'd like to face an early death are: ANTI WRINKLE CREAMS, pimple correctors, deodorant, anything 'medicated', dandruff shampoo

These creams/lotions should be of good quality. Go for the department store rather than the drugstore. Some brands that make some excellent products are Olay, De la Mer, Relvon, Estee Lauder, Cetaphil, Clarins, L'oreal, Lancome, Shisendo, Dove, Chanel, Clinique, Philosophy and more!

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Inexpensive:

Picture frames. A cheap yet charming gift for your mothers! Decorate an existing one or start from scratch. Make sure to include a touching photo of both of you. Moms eat that stuff up and will take pride in displaying it around the house.
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Flowers-

Not a whole batch of expensive tulips if that's out of your price range. But an assortment of them that's enough to fill a small vase. They can be bought from a flower shop or plucked out of someone's garden (preferably your own).
Nowadays it's getting colder so flowers will be more expensive and harder to obtain. Beautiful fake ones will be nice for putting around the house (and no cleaning up the petals after!). For a unique turn on the flower gift, try 'Everlasting flowers'. They are a collection of a few FRESH flowers and put into a glass jar. They will remain fresh and beautiful for a lifetime.

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Saturday, December 5, 2009

Personality Disorders

Personality Disorders
Thought this would be interesting. Makes you think a little bit.
Don't you feel like you may have some of the disorders mentioned?


Paranoid Personality Disorder

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People with paranoid personality disorder have long-term, widespread and unwarranted suspicions that other people are hostile, threatening or demeaning. These beliefs are steadfastly maintained in the absence of any real supporting evidence. Despite the pervasive suspicions they have of others, patients with PPD are not delusional. Most of the time, they are in touch with reality, except for their misinterpretation of others' motives and intentions. PPD patients are not psychotic but their conviction that others are trying to "get them" or humiliate them in some way often leads to hostility and social isolation.

They suspect strangers, and even people they know, of planning to harm or exploit them when there is no good evidence to support this belief. As a result of their constant concern about the lack of trustworthiness of others, patients with this disorder often have few intimate friends or close human contacts. They do not fit in and they do not make good "team players." Interactions with others are characterized by wariness and not infrequently by hostility. If they marry or become otherwise attached to someone, the relationship is often characterized by pathological jealousy and attempts to control their partner. They often assume their sexual partner is "cheating" on them.

People suffering from PPD are very difficult to deal with. They never seem to let down their defenses. They are always looking for and finding evidence that others are against them. Their fear, and the threats they perceive in the innocent statements and actions of others, often contributes to frequent complaining or unfriendly withdrawal or aloofness. They can be confrontational, aggressive and disputatious. It is not unusual for them to sue people they feel have wronged them. In addition, patients with this disorder are known for their tendency to become violent.


Schizotypal personality disorder


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Schizotypal personality disorder is characterized by an ongoing pattern in which the affected person distances himself from social and interpersonal relationships. Affected people typically have an acute discomfort when put in circumstances where they must relate to others. These individuals are also prone to cognitive and perceptual distortions and a display a variety of eccentric behaviors that others often find confusing.

People with schizotypal personality disorder are more comfortable turning inward, away from others, than learning to have meaningful interpersonal relationships. This preferred isolation contributes to distorted perceptions about how interpersonal relationships are supposed to happen. These individuals remain on the periphery of life and often drift from one aimless activity to another with few, if any, meaningful relationships.

A person with schizotypal personality disorder has odd behaviors and thoughts that would typically be viewed by others as eccentric, erratic, and bizarre. They are known on occasion to have brief periods of psychotic episodes. Their speech, while coherent, is marked by a focus on trivial detail. Thought processes of schizotypals include magical thinking, suspiciousness, and illusions. These thought patterns are believed to be the schizotypal's unconscious way of coping with social anxiety. To some extent, these behaviors stem from being socially isolated and having a distorted view of appropriate interpersonal relations.


Schizoid Personality Disorder

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Schizoid personality disorder is characterized by a persistent withdrawal from social relationships and lack of emotional responsiveness in most situations. It is sometimes referred to as a "pleasure deficiency" because of the seeming inability of the person affected to experience joyful or pleasurable responses to life situations.

A person with schizoid personality disorder has little or no interest in developing close interpersonal relation ships. They appear aloof, introverted and prefer being alone. Those who know them often label them as shy or a "loner." They turn inward in an effort to shut out social relationships. It is common for a person with schizoid personality disorder to avoid groups of people or appear disinterested in social situations even when they involve family. They are often perceived by others as socially inept.

A closely related trait is the absence of emotional expression. This apparent void of emotion is routinely interpreted by others as disinterested, lacking concern and insensitive to the needs of others. The person with schizoid personality disorder has particular difficulty expressing anger or hostility. In the absence of any recognizable emotion, the person portrays a dull demeanor and is easily overlooked by others. The typical person with schizoid personality disorder prefers to be viewed as "invisible" since it aids their quest to avoid social contact with others.

Their speech is typically slow and monotonous with a lethargic demeanor. Because their tendency is to turn inward, they can easily become preoccupied with their own thoughts to the exclusion of what is happening in their environment. Attempts to communicate may drift into tangents or confusing associations. They are also prone to being absent minded.


Narcissistic Personality Disorder


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NPD is defined as a pattern of grandiosity (exaggerated claims to talents, importance, or specialness) in the patient's private fantasies or outward behavior; a need for constant admiration from others; and a lack of empathy for others.

Individual must fit five or more of the following descriptions:

* He or she has a grandiose sense of self-importance (exaggerates accomplishments and demands to be considered superior without real evidence of achievement).
* He or she lives in a dream world of exceptional success, power, beauty, genius, or "perfect" love.
* He or she thinks of him- or herself as "special" or privileged, and that he or she can only be understood by other special or high-status people.
* He or she demands excessive amounts of praise or admiration from others.
* He or she feels entitled to automatic deference, compliance , or favorable treatment from others.
* He or she is exploitative towards others and takes advantage of them.
* He or she lacks empathy and does not recognize or identify with others' feelings.
* He or she is frequently envious of others or thinks that they are envious of him or her.
* He or she "has an attitude" or frequently acts in haughty or arrogant ways.

Personality sub-types

  • Craving narcissists. These are people who feel emotionally needy and undernourished, and may well appear clingy or demanding to those around them.
  • Paranoid narcissists. This type of narcissist feels intense contempt for him- or herself, but projects it outward onto others. Paranoid narcissists frequently drive other people away from them by hypercritical and jealous comments and behaviors.
  • Manipulative narcissists. These people enjoy "putting something over" on others, obtaining their feelings of superiority by lying to and manipulating them.
  • Phallic narcissists. Almost all narcissists in this subgroup are male. They tend to be aggressive, athletic, and exhibitionist; they enjoy showing off their bodies, clothes, and overall "manliness."
Obsessive-compulsive Disorder

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Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is currently classified as an anxiety disorder marked by the recurrence of intrusive or disturbing thoughts, impulses, images or ideas (obsessions) accompanied by repeated attempts to suppress these thoughts through the performance of certain irrational and ritualistic behaviors or mental acts (compulsions). The obsessions and compulsions take up large amounts of the patient's time (an hour or longer every day) and usually cause significant emotional distress for the patient and difficulties in his or her relationships with others.

Obsessive-compulsive disorder is a mental disorder with two components: obsessions, which consist of thoughts, impulses, or mental images; and compulsions, which are repetitive behaviors that the person feels driven to perform in response to the obsessions. In some cases, the compulsion may represent a strict rule that the patient must apply rigidly in every situation in order to feel "right." The exact content of obsessions varies from person to person, although certain themes are common. People with OCD experience their disturbing thoughts and images as intrusive and troublesome, but they recognize that their thoughts are products of their own minds.

The most common types of obsessions are:

* fear of contamination (impurity, pollution, badness)
* doubts (worrying about whether one has omitted to do something)
* an intense need to have or put things in a particular order
* aggressive or frightening impulses

A compulsive behavior becomes linked to an obsessional thought because the behavior lowers the level of anxiety produced by the obsessions.

The most common compulsions are:

* washing/cleaning
* counting
* putting objects in a certain order
* repeated "confessing" or asking others for assurance
* repeated actions
* making lists


Histrionic Personality Disorder


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Histrionic personality disorder is a type of personality disorder in which the affected individual displays an enduring pattern of attention-seeking and excessively dramatic behaviors beginning in early adulthood and present across a broad range of situations. Individuals with HPD are highly emotional, charming, energetic, manipulative, seductive, impulsive, erratic, and demanding.

HPD has a unique position among the personality disorders in that it is the only personality disorder explicitly connected to a patient's physical appearance. Researchers have found that HPD appears primarily in men and women with above-average physical appearances. Some research has suggested that the connection between HPD and physical appearance holds for women rather than for men. Both women and men with HPD express a strong need to be the center of attention. Individuals with HPD exaggerate, throw temper tantrums, and cry if they are not the center of attention. Patients with HPD are naive, gullible, have a low frustration threshold, and strong dependency needs.

The cognitive style of individuals with HPD is superficial and lacks detail. In their inter-personal relationships, individuals with HPD use dramatization with a goal of impressing others. The enduring pattern of their insincere and stormy relationships leads to impairment in social and occupational areas.

* P - provocative (or seductive) behavior
* R - relationships, considered more intimate than they are
* A - attention, must be at center of
* I - influenced easily
* S - speech (style) - wants to impress, lacks detail
* E - emotional lability, shallowness
* M - make-up - physical appearance used to draw attention to self
* E - exaggerated emotions - theatrical


Credits: Minddisorders.com, wikipedia.com

Grad fashion show. pictures. and everything nice.

Yesterday was an eventful day. We did presentations in Entre, I _ up with _ and it was our school fashion show! The show was called 'O Stylish Night' which sounds really lame but whatever.

Really pissed off for no reason right now. Wait, I have a reason. I've logged back on Facebook for god knows why and read all my ex-friend's angsty notes, some of which are about me. Like holy crap, I can't believe people actually care about a whiny, insecure little tool like him. Grow up little girl and stop acting like your whole life is so traumatic. I've gone through twice what you have.

I'm also extremely pissed about my report card and not being able to achieve a B in Chemistry.

And I'm angry with my friend for acting like a complete freaking douchebag to me all week. And I'm disappointed with her for the choices that she has made. And I'm annoyed at him for what he did to me. Am I confusing you with my cryptic messages? Don't bother deciphering them!

And because of this mood, I will provide a sub-par post with many photos but lack of enthusiasm. Not including any photos with _ and _ because their face pisses me off.


makeup by MAC. requested purple toned makeup.




My house is freezing, I'm embarrassed, angry and pissed off at the same time.

Only thing to make me feel better is.

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